There are so many things that you start to think about when you begin planning your family; how many kids you think you want, potential baby names, nursery decor, paying attention to your friends’ strollers….you know all the superficial things about having a baby. Then there are some things that kind of dawn on you and you realize you are going to have some major decsions to make once you get pregnant and once the baby is born; I’ve just come to one of these realizations……breastfeeding!
I never really thought about it before; I have friends and family who have breastfed and those who have not and I always just took the stance that everyone has the right to decide what works for them, their baby and their family life. For some reason (and I honestly can’t remember what triggered it) I have been thinking about whether or not I will breastfeed once I have a baby, and to be honest the idea kinda freaks me out!! I know, it is this special bond that you alone share with your child, that it is a beautiful thing providing nourishment to your baby but I’m not entirely sure it is something I honestly want to do. I’ve heard many times that a woman hasn’t breastfed because her milk didn’t come in or she doesn’t produce enough but never because it seems foreign to have a baby hanging off their breast!
I’m not really sure why I feel this way, but I’m really hoping that I can get past this once I do become pregnant and at least give breastfeeding a try as I really do know that it is the best thing for my baby. I know that it can be a challenge and I just hope my fear disappears once it is no longer an idea but a reality!
I’d love to hear if any of you felt the same way before having children or if you are currently TTCing and feel the same way? Did this feeling change once you gave birth?